Please Take Down the Mistletoe

"Christmases When You Were Mine"

Please take down the misletoe
Cause I don't wanna think about that right now
Cause everything I want is miles away
In a snow covered little town
My momma's in the kitchen, worrying about me
Season's greetings, hope you're well
Well I'm doing alright
If you were wondering
Lately I can never tell

I know this shouldn't be a lonely time
But there were Christmases when you were mine

I've been doing fine without you, really
Up until the nights got cold
And everybody's here, except you, baby
Seems like everyone's got someone to hold

But for me it's just a lonely time
Cause there were Christmases when you were mine

Merry Christmas everybody
That'll have to be something I just say this year
I'll bet you got your mom another sweater
And were your cousins late again
When you were putting up the lights this year
Did you notice one less pair of hands

I know this shouldn't be a lonely time
But there were Christmases when I didn't wonder how you are tonight
Cause there were Christmases when you were mine

You were mine

Remembering for the Holidays

Saturday was a kickin' holiday party at my friend David's house. It was a great party and it was nice to see a lot of the guys I hang with at the Hole outside the bar.

However, I ran into my ex. Hmph. He was curt with me, but I found it ironic. I guess what I'm getting at is this: there are a lot of people I've had to let go and it's never easy. I think at this time of year I am feeling it more because it's the time people usually cuddle up with their loved one. I thought I was going to finally have that this year. I don't. So, do I need to mourn the loss of a dream or hope? Do I just go on and hope for next year.

I don't want to give up on that dream. I've let some dreams go because I realized they weren't what I needed to be but this one... I don' think I'm asking for too much. But maybe the dream isn't for me to have. That makes me sad so I'm not going to vote for that last choice.

11 days to Christmas. Tonight is the 4th night of Hanukkah. IT's all good. :)

Fun and Stuff

It's been fun these last few weeks.

I've processed a lot, but I have also started to feel like I am engaged in life. For a while I was just letting the days go by, kind of numb, but now I feel like having fun and stuff...

I went to December Nights last night with my friend Jano. It's a great event and I wish I could do a second night but funds are low right now not to mention the fact that I have to work in the morning. But I am totally up for it next year!

I ran into a friend, Justin, as I was heading into the Spirits Garden (like a beer garden but with liquor and beer... sweet...) and we caught up for a bit. I miss hanging with him. It's been a long time and I guess I just never took it upon myself to make a friendship happen. Well, I think I can prove I can change, so I'll start making that happen more often.

So, things are better and I'm really excited about it.