Miles and Miles and Miles....

It's been a while but I've had such an amazing time.

First off, there have been changes afoot. I'm in my own place and loving it. Of course it's day 2 and I have a ton of unpacking to do but it's nice to have a place all my own.

It's a cute little studio and I'm close to everything.

I've completed my 3rd 1/2 Marathon. So far it's been life this:

-Disney World 1/2= 3:01:45
-Death Valley 1/2= 2:48:00
-San Diego/Petco 1/2= 2:40:18

And here's some pictures!

Yup. That's me doing something I never thought I could.

As far as weight loss. I have finally settled into the 2.20-ish range. It's a nice weight. I would like to go lower and stay lower but I think this is where I need to be right now. And I'm glad I can manage it.

Other wise, life is good right now.

That is all. :)

And the Date Goes On

8 months until 40! And, I've got a bunch of stuff to do.

First off, I'm phasing off of Optifast. I'll have 8 weeks of maintenance and then monthly meeting for a few months. I've been at 205 for a few weeks now and just hanging around a 3 lb range up or down. It's nice to be a weight that is so low and be able to maintain it.

I ran the Disney World 1/2 Marathon.

 3 hours, 1 minute, 46 seconds. And that brings me to 1/2 Marathons:

February: Death Valley 1/2
March: San Diego 1/2
April: La Jolla 1/2
May:
June: Rock-N-Roll 1/2
July:
August: America's Finest City 1/2
September: Disneyland 1/2
October:
November:
December:
January: Disney World 1/2

Just have to find 5 more and complete the full year, but I'm excited! I'm ready to run and get to 40 with a bang.

Then there's dating. I'm back on the market and I've been on 2 dates. One cancelled the other... well, he was really awesome and I'm excited to see him again. That said, I know I'm single and available so I'm not going to settle down too son but I'm sure excited to be out again and meeting people.

2012 has started and I'm here blogging about how much weight I've lost. I'm also restoring my iPod because it's starting to fail big time so I have a mariachi band tooting every 30 seconds as the equipment shuts on and off.

I've looked over my last few years and have seen how invested I've been in things that get me no where. Also people. An old friend of mine came into town and like the last few times he's come in I find out last minute and there's a party being thrown. He likes to tell me about this the day before and I usually have plans or I have to go to bed early. So, it's his loss.

I also found out that a good friend of mine has been coming into town regularly but I've never been told. And, as much as I would love to say these people are crappy I have to take a moment and ponder what it is in my life that I've done to be the guy you don't want to tell when you're heading into town.

But I digress. I go to Disney World on Monday and I took a few minutes to look over my posts from August until now and to think of all the things I've done is quite remarkable.

I'm down to 203 lbs. I haven't had a drink in 20 weeks or a cigarette since February. But I think the biggest accomplishment I've made has been to forgive myself and forgive my past.

My big bro and sis-in-law come in on Sunday but I fly out Monday morning. We'll just miss each other, but I go knowing I'll be in the better, cooler more awesome place and they just have to suck it up and deal. (Just kidding. I mean, yeah, I'll be having fun but they'll have unrestricted access to Mom & Dad).

One last thing: I switch to nights when I come back. 3:30 to 11:45 PM. We'll see how that goes... .

It's almost Christmas.

It's the 2nd "Day" of Hanukkah.

But, most importantly, it's Winter Solstice!

And that means we have 366 days left before we all die in an apocalypse. (Leap year, wouldn't you know...).

I'm finally down to 209 lbs. I've lost 102 lbs since August. I've started to eat again: protein. Tomorrow I start veggies and then next week I get to try salad stuff.

I've really worked hard and I need to keep running and exercising. I'm starting weight training in January and I think I'll have the body I want before I burst into flames and the earth collides with the sun next year. We might all be doomed but I plan to go out looking fine, y'all.

'Cuz It's Almost Christmas

Happy World AIDS Day?

Is that appropriate? Well, here's my check-in as I do laundry and watch Tabitha's Salon Takeover.

The last time I checked in I was in my 240's. I've now hit 230 lbs and am in the 220's. But, so much has happened since we last spoke.

Some douche-bag tailgated me and got crazy passive aggressive. So, I pulled over to let him/her pass. They pulled up behind me and started honking and flashing their brights at me (it was night time). So they finally got their head out of their ass and went to go around me and decided to slam into my back end. Then had the nerve to try and speed away.

Well, dear reader, I chased their ass until I could read their license plate and called 911. The car had insurance but the driver was excluded. So, my insurance has to pay for my car. I had whiplash but I'm totally fine now.

I'm still working on running and getting my saggy ass (and it's kinda saggy since I've lost all the fat in it) ready for the Disney World Half- Marathon. One funny thing: Everyone tells me something different about prepping for my first Half-Marathon.

One thing I hear is: "You should be able to run 8 miles easily." OK, well, that's not possible by January 7th. The other thing I hear is: "If you can run 4 miles you can do 3-4 times that no problem." I highly doubt that but it's encouraging. Here's that I think: I can run it but it's gonna be hard and kinda sucky no matter what. Why? It will be the first time I have tried to run 13.1 miles and there's no way to know what that will be like until I do it. But I'm really ready to do it! (Mentally. Physically is a whole other subject but I'm excited to try).

So, I'm still running, I'm going to get my car fixed and I'm in a really good space.

Smiley Face!

Why Weightloss Sucks

Some people have told me that I'm amazing for losing so much weight. Just to check in: I'm down in the 240's (and according to my scale at home I'm 238 lbs.). But it's not all chocolate shakes and fake chicken soup.

I decided to get some therapy at the same time. See, I have had a feeling that there was a missing piece to this puzzle of this "Jeremiah = Fatty McFatterton" sit-com. And there is.

Just like any good sit-com, movie, series or book: It's all about how dysfunctional you are.

So, my therapist advised me to read Pia Melody's Facing Codependence. Frighteningly, it's really on the money for me. I won't go into it but it's been enlightening and scary all at the same time. Like Paranormal State and Ghost Adventures I'm facing my ghosts and demons head on and it's really a daunting task. Seeing things in front of you rather than from the corner of your eye makes it easier to deal with but there are moments I wish I still felt "crazy" rather than admit I have these issues.

However, I want to be a healthy weight. I want to look good in a speedo. I want to be proud of my body and even though I've lost 73 lbs. I'm still not proud of my body. The accomplishment? Totally. What I still look like? Oh, hellz no, bitchez!

The next issue is how tired and dizzy I feel sometimes. I need to address this with my group facilitator and find a solution. If I'm going to do the Disney World Half-Marathon in January I'll need to train. And I think I'm getting to the point where the training is more than my calorie-depleted fast will allow. Maybe I can switch to the other program. Ooooh! I just got so excited! The possibility of solid food is really exhilarating.

Thundercats! Hooooooooooo!!!!!

My , How Time Has Passed...

Just a quick check-in.

I've reached the half-way point. I'm down 45 lbs and everything is great.

Week 6 gave me a peace of mind about how hard I have worked and how far I have come and I have a ways to go, even still.

Oddly, even though I'm half-way to my goal weight, I think I might want to adjust it lower. If that's the case then I'll be half-way to my goal weight in another 15 lbs.

Just to be clear, I was 311 lbs and my goal is 220 lbs. I might take it down to 210 or 200. As it is, I am planning to lose 90 lbs. Taking it lower means it will be 100 to 110 lbs. Those numbers scare me a little. Not that it's a low weight but that I was 100 to 110 lbs over weight. 90 isn't a triple digit number... It's safe. 100 is a bit intense for my psyche. But if that's where I need to go then that's where I need to go.

(BTW: The pic you see above is from:
http://wins.failblog.org/2011/10/07/epic-win-photos-sassy-embroidery-win/